I'm sorry
I've been trying to busy myself with everything and actually be active on here. I'm getting to everything, just give me a little time.
I feel like I'm on autopilot.

I have been thinking about my life. What I want to do. What matters. This is what I have decided:

I want to feel everything. I want to see everything. I want to talk to people, befriend strangers from all places. I want to swim in every ocean. I want to feel the sand of hundreds of beaches. I want to touch the side of the Buckingham Palace and the Louvre. I want to see Prague, Melbourne, Venice.

I honestly don't care about money. I will be broke my whole life, probably, but it doesn't matter. I don't need it. I would just spend it anyway. All I care about is being happy and feeling everything. I think that's all we should care about.

Fuck everything else. I don't care if I'm not accepted by everyone, though I have a lot of friends. I'm not realistic and I don't care. I hate practical people. I hate realistic ideas. I honestly think I can do all this stuff I want to do with my life, and I will prove anyone wrong who says I can't.

So, with that said, I am going to Puerto Rico in May and living in Boston this summer. And in a few years I'm backpacking through Europe. I don't have $20 to my name, but I will do this. And anyone who says I can't can SUCK IT.
Someone on deviantart said this, I don't remember exactly, but it has stuck with me:

"...I will fucking DO IT, because I will die anyway, with or without debt."

I love you all, really and thanks for your patience.